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Emotional Burnout #MotivationMonday


It has been a week since I have been able to get a blog post out of me. If you look at my drafts, I started multiple posts but just couldn’t finish them. Yes time was a factor but if I am being truthful, my heart just wasn’t in it to write this past week. Being pregnant, I know that I am more emotional than usual but I would just sit and start crying multiple times throughout the day because this past weekend was my little brother’s 9th anniversary of his death and I was becoming emotionally burned out.

The week leading up to his anniversary is always an emotional one but we keep busy by planning his annual balloon release memorial service and cook out. Add the stress of the pregnancy hormones and the pregnancy itself… my stress level felt like it skyrocketed. Now add that my psych paper this week was on Addiction and basically I just mentally shut down.

More than once my boyfriend found me crying and when he would ask why, all I could muster up was that it was all too much this week and I couldn’t take it. In one week, I dealt with my brother’s death anniversary, my pregnancy complications (had a few close call fainting spells) and one of the Mama’s in my group had to have her twin boys early because of complications (I sat on the couch and cried for hours for those boys who are now in the NICU and getting stronger everyday). I just hit my end and crashed but it felt like every time I did something, I crashed all over again.

Last night was the first night I was able to get to bed and sleep before midnight which was a nice thing for me. I was living off of little sleep and an occasional nap. My poor boyfriend had his head bitten off more than once in an hour for the past week (sorry babe). I had the Mom Emotional Burn Out but this week it is time for recovery and get myself back on track.

Every mom has their emotional burn out moments trust me! Some are definitely not as extreme as mine but we all have them. The key is to let yourself feel your emotions, embrace the discomfort while it lasts and when you are ready, pick yourself up and love yourself again. Motivation Monday!

**On a little side note, my boyfriend has made it without to many scars through this pregnancy and other times so I have to say Happy Anniversary! I love you and everything you do for our family.


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No Direction Overload


Now that I am on bed rest, or at least for the time being, I have made the committment to commit to my blog on a consistent basis which is a huge deal for me. In the past, life has taken over and my blog was conveniently forgotten. I mean who has time to blog when you are running in a million directions and just want to veg out to your latest Netflix binge at night?

Since making this committment, which I hate committing to ANYTHING, I have laid out a game plan to do research on how to make my blog successful. I have seen how other people’s blog just take off which truly inspires me but I have no idea HOW to do that…. at all! When I have blogged in the past, it was more of my way of sharing what is going on in my life and in my head. Now, my research is telling me that I need to pick a theme or direction and stick with that. Well, my mind is full of ideas and I live by my emotions so sticking with one direction (should I sing you a song? hehe) makes my anxiety sky rocket to the moon.

I have so much that goes on in my life that how can I pick just one or two directions for my blog? I have my relationship (which we all know can be a roller coaster especially now that I am hormonal), I have my pregnancy, I have my children, I have my attempt at gardening, I have my handmade business, I have my journey of self love, I have my life which is filled with a different stress or drama or happiness everyday. Can’t I just write about all of these?

My experienced bloggers, does anyone have any tips they can share? I want to make my blog a success but I am struggling with the direction aspect. Any help will be appreciated!